Lately, I feel like I have been slipping up...not tremendously, but enough to realize I need to address it. Sometimes I feel so filled with energy and fervor, but I oftentimes grapple with pushing myself to be creative and interesting.
I'm not sure what it is, but sometimes I miss being a child, when you feel like you have your entire life ahead of you with any road to chose to venture down. This is actually the exact path I wanted to explore since I was four years old, drawing inside of a tent perched on top of my tiny bed, and now that I'm here, I realize how trying it can be to keep moving forward without getting stuck in the same pattern that works for many people, but doesn't necessarily work for me. I think I've just been thinking too much because I'm about to turn 26 in a few days, and I want prove my younger self right that I am in fact going in the right direction. I had assumed that life in general would be easy and fun, and you know...it turns out that it is utterly amazing (and has a plethora of opportunities for further improvement), but you have to work hard in your relationships, career, and family in order to build your life in a way that makes you happy.
I know that I've needed time to regroup myself for a little while, and I think I just need to finally give in and do so instead of cranking out quantity rather than quality. Thank you all so much for your unending support. I know we can all be hard on ourselves, and your insight and words of encouragement mean so much to me. I never realized how much my blog would mean to me less than a year ago, and want it to continue to be my powerhouse for creativity and happiness, but in a more defined path. I think I'll be back in about a week or two.
Before I scoot away and rush off, I do want to let you know that I can't wait to work on an illustration of one of the photos that you voted on: photo #2 shot by Hilda Randulv. I loved reading your thoughts, as always.
I can sense good vibes over the horizon...